slowly

power was out for 2 days

no working out

lot's of issues with kids

eating junk

school soon

yea

hurricane prepped and please comment about juicing

we are in NJ near the water. we have not been evacuated. but we are prepped. Unfortunately being prepared means, lots of junk food, no exercising. My survival kit contains, english toffee from trader joe's - holy cow it is good. Be safe.

I am still curious if you juice out there ? what do you use ? I am begging for a comment or 2

speed work & nutrition

first off i did speed work today with a friend. it was fun. but my garmin was acting up and i don't have real numbers and stats which makes me upset. i love stats. but it was good to do it. with someone. and our kids played together while we ran. a great start to the day.

next up. damn how i need to get better at veggies and fruits. do you have a juicer ? i am seriously thinking about getting one. i make smoothies but i just use fruit, need to get veggies in there. do you juice ???

lost

i feel a bit lost. no coach. no A race right around the corner. No babysitters.

I have had to go back to working out in gym. I did go to a boot camp on the beach and got my ass kicked. But the plan is to get strength back in the rotation. It might be the most beautiful day of the summer and my girls voted against the beach ? It was one of those days where I feel like we got stuff done but we floundered too much and they are both cranky. Probably due to the late nights they have had.

Every time I go food shopping I buy a bunch of healthy stuff and maybe cook for 2 days and that is it. then it goes bad and i have to throw out and then i eat crappy.

GOALS
Overall and daily - start organizing areas of the house that are cluttered or still have boxed items from move. doesn't need to be done at once, but if i could just start a little at a time. seeing the little results will hopefully give me the umpf to move forward.

working out - i already planned my workouts based on my week. hope to stick to it and get them all in.

food - get my ass food shopping, grill fish - so easy and yet i never do. prep food, make some energy bars

to do list - accomplish at least a few things on the never ending list.

good news for tonight, both girls gone for a bit. one has a class and one is going on playdate so i get to run outside on this beautiful day. and both girls are at a place where they are very happy.

trying to get out of the funk mood and be happy and positive .....

post vacation depression

we were up in the cape visiting my sis and family. it was great, great weather, and my girls are 100% in heaven with their older cousins. Now we are back to reality of just me and the kids, hubby will be back at work and i am in charge of entertainment.

We took a sailboat out with the girls. Hubby fished with the girls, he golfed. I ran with my niece. It was a prefect vacation.

Now I need to get back to working out, I still have one more tri this season, the danskin in sept. In my last sprint tri I did do better on the bike but my run sucked !!!! So it seems that I can get better in one area and that takes away from another. I need to fix this.

I just signed up for the ing half marathon in miami !!! woot woot.

I plan on working out at the gym tomorrow which i have not done in a long time. I need to stop the babysitters and get back to the gym. spin class will have to do. i will get outside on the weekends.

mental games

i had a sprint tri today. my head was NOT in the game. It took a lot to get out the door. it was raining. as usual i was in one of the last 3 waves, waiting plays with your mind. i did not even notice what time we went off, nor did i time myself. this is a tri that is all female and caters to first timers. There were a lot of folks i know who were doing a tri for the first time. I think it is great and I encourage it and support it. However, my mental mind gets worried and nervous that all these first timers will beat my time, then i will get depressed b/c i have been doing them for 3 seasons, i have done an olympic, why am i not faster, what is wrong with me, i suck. as soon as i am done with the race i think of how i should have pushed harder. yet while i am racing i am thinking ugh i can't push it or i will puke, but in reality i know i have more left in me. I feel like i almost give me in a workout ???

i will be anxiously awaiting the results to see if at least improved on last years, or at least went faster on the bike. then i will check to see what people i know did. I hate this in myself, why do i care, why do i let it bother me ??

am i the only one that goes thru this ???

finally...

feeling myself.

i got back to workouts this week

it is hard not having a plan like before w a coach but i can do this. just need to plan it out ...this week doing a sprint tri and i plan on pushing and freaking just trying to go faster and getting OUT of my comfort zone. then we head to cape cod for vaca with family. i am not planning on any major working out, some casual bike rides with family and maybe a run or 2 on my own.

i am looking forward to changing it up and focusing on strength and running.

oh and i did not remove my sneakers from my tri bag for a solid week. and when i did - the stench was unbearable. i went and bought a new pair right away. i just put in washing machine and the stank is still there. it smells like piss. but i did not piss myself, it was all the water stations with hoses and sprays we needed in the heat. it was gross.

i still want to write about my huge mistake in recovery last week.....just can't get focused. gotta go put the girls to bed.....should probably just go to sleep wtih them, hubby not getting home till 10.