a journey

this post might sound a bit hokey but here it goes. I am on a journey. I have been working on some things in my life and I am learning A WHOLE LOT about myself. What I find amazing is that it applies to every aspect of my life, even exercise.

I hold back. I say I can't. Trust me I am at the gym almost every day working out. But showing up is only HALF of it, you need to be there and be ready to give 100%. I did a spin class on Friday and I used more resistant than I have in the past. I was pushing myself and challenging myself. Instead of saying I am saving myself for the end OR I can't do this, I just turned the knob and said give it a try, you can always turn it down. About a third of the way in I was smiling, I was happy and I got that really good feeling that I was pushing myself and it was FUN. I was able to look at it as a challenge and to give the 100% was fun. I let go. I need to do that more in every aspect of my life.

Today I ran and I was tempted to stop at 3 miles, but I had some more of the loop to finish and I said, I can do this, I don't have to go fast I can just chug along and get the miles in. It felt great.

I never realized that pushing yourself would take learning. Turning that mindset from I can't do this OR i don't want to do this (even though you are doing it - those thoughts just don't help) TO I can do this, I will try to do this, I will give it my all, isn't that why I am out here. It helps, it works. I hope my whole attitude is ready for this change and journey.